
I was reading back over all my old posts (glad I wrote them) and I see a very cyclical pattern where I feel better and then worse. I can also see that I have gotten a lot better from when I started this whole nightmare.
I do still think something is wrong and the medication is just masking the pain. But it's doing a decent job of it. But not decent enough that I feel normal.
But I'm kind of a crossroads about what to do. Do I do nothing and just deal with the current discomfort hoping things will gradually improve? Do I give it another 3 months and reevaluate?
Do I go to the new pt? I didn't feel like pt helped before but this person so local.
Do I go see Dr. Marvel? If I am already on nerve pain medicine, what else can he really do? But I have not seen any doctor who has really understood what happened to me. I would like someone to be able to explain what happened.
I just feel so depressed a lot of the time. I was a healthy woman in my 30s, and overnight I feel like I became an 80 year old. I feel broken.