miraculous healing part 1

[pianogal]

I never dreamed this would happen to me, but I have been miraculously healed by God, by Jesus, by the Holy Spirit of a lifetime of being anorgasmic, of years of hating and despising sex... healed completely.

And I wasn't even asking God to heal me of this. While praying, with ZERO TOUCH, I began to feel God creating pleasure where the pain was... basically, in a myriad of distinct and different ways. It progressed this month thanks to God teaching me so much I didn't know, teaching me not to feel unworthy or like it was wrong... and it was TOTALLY GOD. (the closest I can describe is that scene in Bruce Almighty ... but it was not hyperarousal.) I mean, this only happened when praying... in the beginning of the month it started with growing flower sensations, then fireworks... just blooming while seeking God...worshipping and praising Him. Only thinking about God. And it grew to where God let me experience the whole of what it's supposed to be. !!! But only when praying or by praying while believing. Believing if I asked for something, God would make it happen... and then a second later, there it would be. First I didn't ask, but then I would ask just to see if it was really from praying. One time, I said... hey God, please send 10 fireworks. Boom, there were 13 of them. Prior, there'd never be more than one so that was a leap of faith there. Believe me, I have tested it in my mind because I've never been someone to even think of something like this occurring. Also, this is really embarrassing, not a testimony I can go stand on the stage at church and share without people thinking I am a lunatic. People who don't know me might think I'm just a sex-crazed freak, but those who know me know I hated and despised everything about sex due to PNE which hit me on my honeymoon. I never had one pleasurable sensation with it. I had remained completely pure and waited till marriage. I was excited about getting married and the sex element but got hit with a major major heartbreak when it felt like knives and nothing felt good.

So this is really crazy... but my vagina is different down there now.

It never created lubrication but now it does. The large dilator was always a struggle to get in and somewhat painful but now it slides in with extra room every time. Every touch used to feel annoying, nauseous, aggravating, anxious, but now they feel good. My body is responding to my husband's touch which it never had. We'd tried everything to make me work. No amount of my thought, drinking enough wine, spending over an hour, trying a vibrator, NOTHING ever worked... but now, the slightest little thing feels good. Praise GOD! Who knew, I didn't know, God cared about me having this... but He does.

I KNOW God told me I'd be fully healed, and I believe it. I never imagined it would start like this.

And I actually think I heard Him whisper to me several days ago that in 13 days His work would be complete. (the sitting part I believe) That day is on Passover. I looked up what passover means, and it represents when the Isrealites were freed from slavery from Egypt, their lives were spared by God, how they entered the promised land, and how Jesus freed us from eternity in Hell through His sacrifice... It's a huge story. But it ties in with my promise verse, Isaiah 43:2 "when you walk through the waters I will be with you, when you walk through the waters they won't overwhelm you." This describes the isrealites leaving Egypt and entering the promised land in Bible commentaries. I have no awareness of calendars or schedules, so there's no way my brain concocted the date... and I feel eager anticipation of complete healing. A little fear that God meant it just symbolically, and it's for a future date, but either way, I know He keeps His promises!

I never would have had the faith to believe this even one month ago. Actually this whole month feeling God's touch so directly has strengthened my faith greatly and continues to.

Why am I telling you all this? because I want you to know that even when you think you have no hope, God can work outside the box to give you hope where you never expected it. In His ways, in His timing.

I suffered nearly 9 years of this... kept praying, kept asking God for healing... and He has over the past couple years finally shown me signs of a promise... and now is starting to fulfill it to me... but mostly when I SEEK HIM. So.... SEEK HIM, for who He is.... for His love....

I'm not saying my story will be your story, because God is different every time... but please SEEK HIM. It's better than being alone. Know He loves you and cares about what concerns you. Let Him lead you through the storm... it's easier with Him than alone.

Hope I haven't offended anyone. Hope no one thinks I am a freak. Hey, if I didn't know me, I might think I was a freak. But I'm not... God is just outside the box but I am NOT complaining! God bless!

[donstore]

Pianogal,
I am so happy for you ! May your healing continue. What a gift. Keep us posted.

Best Wishes,

Don

[Griff522]

Great news PG! And I don't think you're a freak. You are an awesome example of faith and hope. I wish continued healing and complete relief for you.

[nyt]

What a wonderful experience! I am so happy that things are progressing in such a wonderful way for you.

[A's Mommy]

I give all glory, honor and praise to Jesus for what He is doing in your life.

"To God Be The Glory For The Things He Hath Done"

A's Mommy

[Lernica]

I can only say (as in the movie "When Harry met Sally", after the fake orgasm scene in the restaurant) -- "I'll have whatever she ordered"!

Hope your healing continues, Pianogal. You deserve it!

[pomegranate]

Glory to God, the ultimate healer!

[MsRivers]

I'm so happy for you PG.

[GraceUnderFire]

Awesome! I am so happy for you. And you are right, in His time

Grace

[mod3]

Pianogal, the moderators decided this thread should be moved to the spiritual section of the forum.

It's great to hear that you are seeing some improvements and I hope things continue to go well for you!

Take care,

Mod3